An Introspection

Like all other weekends this is one of them...What do I mean by a "like all" ??
Sleeping most of the time and then enlightened with the fact that I had some bank work to do... now its closing time. In nutshell, nothing great....

However, if you are getting married in next 90 days, then you start thinking about yourself...
what you have done so far for yourself...
how much time/money you have invested...
Is your life going to be ended soon or it would be a new (pleasant) start....
What if I could have done this last year only....
What if I could have one more onsite...

Do I really think this introspection needs a shell of confinement?
Frankly, I am not looking for an answer....
Pecuniary considerations are obvious. Rest is not.

Being married doesn't mean that you would have a rein to your thoughts,abilities,capabilities,adrenaline... it is all perception.. may be I am distracted by elders or experienced one's feedback on what they had through this roller coaster :)

So to kill this thought I took my tripod,camera & went for an undisclosed location with my wandering mind... no phone calls, no idiot box, no keyboard, no planners !!!
And it feels good now... so I have discovered a kind of antidote to some kind of weedy thoughts with lots of 'could have' and 'would have' embedded in them, allowing room for burgeoning thoughts to keep me as a boy who just love his toys !!!